Val's Journal

Today I'm off from work, and I've been having a pretty laid back day. I got to sleep in this morning and have just been doing random household chores like laundry and such. I've been fighting the urge to completely re-do my website already but I think it's happening anyways lol. I don't know why I'm so indecisive... That's kind of how I've always just been though, it's always been really hard for me to just pick something and stick to it. It feels like what I want is constantly changing.

This past work week was insanely tiring for me. I haven't heard anything back yet but I'm really hoping that I land that job that I interviewed for a few weeks ago. I genuinely have no idea how I made it through the week, I worked like over 35 hours I think. I haven't worked that much in ages. I guess it makes sense that I would be tired then. I can't believe that I was unemployed for so long, the job market in my town is so horrible right now.

I spent a good chunk of my day today trying to figure out how to re-enroll myself for Medicaid and I guess the cost of my current plan has gone up and I'm not even eligible for any tax credits(??) this year. I don't know why, maybe because my income is higher this year? Anyways it was really confusing and it's giving me a little bit of anxiety to think about. I might just end up getting free healthcare from the gender clinic I go to. Whatever ends up happening though I hope I figure it out soon, I can't really afford to have a lapse in coverage; especially now that I'm on like a zillion different medications.

I'm off from work today, thankfully. I had my first full 8-hour shift this week on Tuesday and it was soooo tiring for me. I'm glad it's over. I am a little nervous though that I'm going to have to do the same thing all over again on Friday and Saturday. I don't know how I'm going to survive lol. I hate being disabled sometimes.

I had a meeting today to join my city's local tenant organizing group, and I'm really excited about the whole thing. They said that they would be happy to invite me into the group and that I'm invited to come to their next group meeting next week. I haven't been able to be super involved with the mutual aid group that I'm in for several reasons (such as my ex being in the group), so I'm really pumped to get involved in a movement that is really important to me (tenant organizing). I wish that my ex being in the same mutual aid group as me wasn't as daunting as it is but things ended so badly between the two of us that I can't help but feel weird about it.

I interviewed for a job last week that I'm super excited about and I can't wait to hear back if I got the job or not. It's for a peer support role in a local non-profit organziation where I would essentially be meeting with people and giving them support for their mental health and/or substance abuse issues while also helping them secure housing. It also is a pretty significant pay raise at $20/hr and the position is unionized. That sounds amazing to me. I do kind of like the job that I have right now but I only get paid $15 an hour and there is no union so... I could be doing a lot better.